“My parents left me when I was just a young child. I’ve been thrown around in the foster care system for as long as I can remember. Who I am and what I come from were all hidden from me until I met you. You revealed yourself to me and taught me all the things I needed to know about me and my parents at a time where it was paramount. I was only a brief moment away from meeting them in purgatory.
For someone who’s been with the first consistent set of foster parents for at least three years, you’d think that the loneliness that I felt wouldn’t dissipate. It didn’t. There were things that I saw that I didn’t understand, and it ate me alive. The pain and sorrow was rotting me from the inside out and the only thing that I wanted to do was end it all. Then there you were.
You slowly began to appear from something so transparent in front of my very eyes. Sun-kissed skin of the pale variety with long silver locs and ghoulish crimson eyes accosted my sight. That wide beautiful smile will always be part of my memory. I can just see those straight pearly white within plump lips now. I didn’t fear you at all. Months passed with you by my side and the loneliness subsided. No one could hear or see you, but you were real to me as my long fingers always caressed your dead flesh.
Mentions of my mother and father spilled from your lips every day about how they could see things that others could not see. You told me tales of a heroic nature from when they saved a kid from a burning fire, and died in the process. Said that the ghost that loomed around them most of their life warned them, but it was too late for them. That kid that they saved from the fire was me, and you were that ghost. -by Grim Angel
Image: from WallPaper Up
March 3, 2017 at 4:01 pm
Makes me admire you even more. The unwanted child or the child who feels unwanted, is surely the most courageous, for her effort to still care about a world that seems so unfair. You struck me as such a lovely person when I ‘met’ you on here, and reading this makes me angry because I wanred children and I wished I had had you as a child so I could have loved you and needed you, because everyone should have that. It is unfair that any child should feel they are not wanted or worthy. You ARE wanted and worthy and your parents may not know that but anyone who knows you does. Parents can be whack. My mom left when I was six, I half-understand that pain though not as fully. I just want you to know that I think the world of you and I know I’m not alone in that, and anyone who really knows you would. There are some really shallow people in this world who do not see the gifts they are given. YOU are a gift. I am proud to call you my friend. What a beautiful and talented young woman you became inspite of all that tried to hold you back.
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March 3, 2017 at 4:06 pm
Thank you for taking the time to read and respond. It means so much to me. I still have both parents in my life, my dad not so much as my mother though. He never really wanted to be around, so I always felt missing parts of me. And with my mother, when I was younger I was neglected. In a lot of ways I really felt unwanted, and a burden to a lot of the people in my life. It took years for me to work through a lot of the issues that came along with that. I am so grateful to people like you who get it and understand and can share just a bit of that pain. It doesn’t have to be under the same circumstances because pain is pain no matter how people like to shape it. I am so grateful to you. Thank you. You have made my entire week! And you’re right. Some parents are whack, but I believe that what your mother did shaped a beautiful person that I can call my friend today. 🙂
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March 3, 2017 at 5:12 pm
I’m always amazed the best people i meet have endured hard times, it shows in the depth of your heart and mind and just makes me appreciate you and your art more. I’m really glad i “met” you here because you are a rare person, that’s a compliment. I totally understand the feeling of being unwanted I just want to let you know you’re wanted in many ways and it’s someone else’s loss if they wouldn’t want you. I feel richer for knowing you and i hope we’ll remain in touch, i think you’re terrific my beautiful friend♡ I’m so proud of you for surviving and only growing more ♡
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March 3, 2017 at 5:29 pm
I’m proud of you too despite what you went through as well. It shows and tells a lot about someone who have gone through something like that and have come out on top and is able to talk about it. Thank you for sharing and caring. I hold you dear to me.
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March 3, 2017 at 4:03 pm
PS – this was an awesome piece of writing. Your gift at writing is only one of your attributes but one I admire dearly. Respect and love to you my writer friend.
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March 3, 2017 at 4:07 pm
Thank you so much. I feel the same with you and your work. You inspire me a lot!
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March 7, 2017 at 10:13 am
Such a great prose, i loved it!
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March 7, 2017 at 11:03 am
Thank you!
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March 7, 2017 at 10:15 am
Reblogged this on Hope Dream Wait.
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